...Well, this message is for a very important person... I doubt she'll even read it though, or even care that I took time to do this, but it's been on my heart for a good while and I finally have the courage to face this and share this with all who will read it... I'll start from the beginning... and then explain why I'm doing this...
This girl, well woman now, was the first cursh I've ever had. I don't know why I was so fixated with her, but I was, ever since the first time I spotted her, when I was in the third grade...
I got a drawing from her a couple years later, through her younger sister, which was of Sonic, from an artwork of him as depicted in Sonic Adventure 2. At the time though, I didn't know it was from her, since I asked her sister to get a picture for me, which she sort of did, and I had to pay a dollar for it. But I didnt care. You know how young kids are... they say something until they get what they want. I remember that once I got the drawing and I gave her the dollar she said "My sister drew that, not me." I didn't really care, since I got a drawing of Sonic, who was my favorite character at that time... But I lost that drawing and the notebook that I had it in when my mom's van was stolen.
When I got to 7th Grade I had classes with her youngest sibling, her brother, and that's when I found out how they were all related.
A few years later though, when I was just entering High School, I finally had a class with her. It was a short lived experience, since I was a stupid little kid then and didn't know how any better. But I managed to talk to her and we sorta hung out a little. I really liked her character designs and her art style in general, which pushed me to draw more. (This was when I was just starting out with artwork for real instead of tracing things)
We hung out and spent time together, well, including my other friends, and I did manage to talk to her alone sometimes, during class and outside class, during intermissions and changing classes, and sometimes after school when I tried out Robotics for the first time.
Sometime after the halfway point of Freshman year, I asked her to draw a bunch of stuff for me, including a few girl characters, just so I could sit a watch her work. Which she did, and did pretty fast too. A total of five drawings in less than thirty minutes, I was amazed at the time, and if I find the artworks again, I may share them...
The end of my freshman year, she graduated. I had gotten to be great friends with my very first crush, and I began to realize why I liked her so much, I feel I have a better understanding of that now... However, when she graduated, I felt sad, and I cried that day she told me too. Because I had "lost" someone else I had cared about, as my grandmother died the year before.
A couple more years passed and I met a friend that had ties to this girl, and I got a bit more hopeful. I'd obtained her number from this friend that we both shared now, and chatted with her a little, via text messages, but the next day, she told me that her boyfriend started acting crazy and that I'd gotten her in trouble with him... and that it would be better if we didn't speak to each other again. And we didn't... Though I did manage to get an apology to her about causing problems with her boyfriend, she was still adamant about us talking again.
I think it was a few months later after that, that I'd gotten the suggestion to start a DeviantArt. I did, and I'd wanted to show her, my crush, that I'd been working to improve, however, that didn't come out the way I'd hoped, as she blocked me almost immediately.
Yeah, I was hurt for a while, but even tually I'd gotten over it. I just felt the need to get this off of my chest now, since I'm failry certain that this will have no meaning to her whatsoever, but she is one of the people who inspired me to improve at this art stuff, and she's played a very important part in my growth as an artist, simply because I wanted to impress her, at first at least.
All in all,
Myabun you probably knew this already, but I've had a massive crush on you for years, and I'm sad that things turned out the way they did, but I'm gald I got to spend some time with you at the least and become friends with you...
I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday... I really do hope you have a good birthday, I honestly hope that I haven't put a damper on anything for you on this special day, as that is not what I intend with this... I just wanted to thank you for all that you've done, becuase if it wasn't for you, I probably wouldn't have even gotten this far... so thank you... and Happy Birthday... I wish you many, many more too.